Weekly Meal Planning Inspiration

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I hope your Christmas was merry and you have wonderful New Year’s plans. Ours will consist of getting a good night’s sleep to be up and ready with our 3-year old who wakes by 5 a.m. every day, “ready to start my day!” as she says. It’s another holiday week here, so I have a little bit more free time on my hands, with which I hope to spend with my kids and not too much in the kitchen!

Monday: crab cakes, potato fries and coleslaw (I love this recipe here)

Tuesday: shredded BBQ chicken sandwiches (I shred chicken breasts or tenders with the paddle attachment in my stand mixer), homemade GF rolls and green beans

Wednesday: Since my husband’s home, I’m letting him take over Wednesday with probably some grass fed organic rib eyes on the grill and roasted brussel sprouts

Thursday: GF mac and (goat’s) cheese

Weekly Menu Planning Inspiration

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It may be Christmas week, but I still have to feed my family a healthy dinner each night! I don’t know about you, but I’m so excited for Christmas that it’s hard to think about the normal tasks like making dinner, doing dishes and laundry and all the regular daily to-do’s. So, I had to really buckle down and plan this week in order to have the groceries needed to prepare some healthy meals.

Monday: Flounder was on sale this week, so we’re having a light baked flounder with quinoa and red cabbage. With the cabbage, I just cut it up and cook it with onions, coconut oil, squeezed lemon, salt and pepper. Sometimes I had a chopped apple for sweetness.

Tuesday: My 3-year old has been asking for spaghetti, which I’ve come to realize is more about the meatballs for her. Here’s my favorite spaghetti and meatballs recipe. I add spinach to the sauce to cover our greens for the evening.

Wednesday: Christmas day! We are going to have prime rib, mashed potatoes and kale salad. Can’t wait! This is probably our favorite meal ever!

Thursday: Ah, the day after Christmas and the bit of a let-down you can feel after all that planning… I’ve decided to try something different and make a chicken pot pie with gluten-free crust and roasted butternut squash. I’m going to make a combination of 2 recipes: This Betty Crocker recipe for the crust and this Bon Apetit recipe for the inside mixture of chicken and butternut squash.

Can an eating disorder sneak into other areas of your life?

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A conversation with one of my best friends reminded me of a time when my eating disorder was discovered in unsuspected areas of my life. Truth is, an eating disorder emerges from a place deep inside. It’s different for everyone, but it’s not just body image and wanting to be skinny(er). So, yes, it is possible for said disorder to appear elsewhere, even after you’ve been in recovery for a while.

Oftentimes, eating disorders emerge in people with perfectionism traits; the kind of perfectionism that makes you really awesome at tracking every crumb, calorie and stick of gum that passes your lips. For me, excellent grades, orderliness, perfect handwriting, and probably countless other things pointed to the perfectionist “gene”. Not all bad, of course, but perfectionism can lead you on a dangerous path. Being perfect in things like rigorous work-out schedules and eating regimens quickly removes us from any sense of self-love and intuitive living. I was “perfect” at counting calories, burning calories and torturing my body into submission.

Alongside perfectionism is obsession. I can’t say it’s directly related to OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder) but it must be pretty darn close. I can remember using my 10-key calculator to run tapes of my calories. I would start a new one every time I ate something, committing every number to memory, every bite accounted for. It calmed me and grounded me, reminded me of my purpose. I wish I could hug that version of myself and say, “Honey, that was not a purpose filled life.”

When succumbing to a lifestyle of disordered eating, secrecy can be an issue too. I mean these things are not exactly performed publicly. I hid my food journals. I ate somewhat normally in front of people, while keeping my more neurotic tendencies to myself. Somehow, those secrets empowered me, but really, they imprisoned me. Nothing is truly ever hidden and only darkness lives in those places.

Behind eating disorders is a great amount of control also. Sometimes it feels like the only bit of control you have. When I was sinking into the deepest part of my disorder, I was in an abusive relationship with a controlling man and the little games I played in my head, controlling what I ate and obsessing over the numbers, gave me a sense of control over something.

So, yes, while I finally found a lot of healing and worked through a lot of my food issues, I also found, working with a mentor, that my disorder was lurking in other places in my life. Perfectionism, obsession, secrecy and control hadn’t exactly disappeared. While I was feeding my cravings and giving myself permission to eat again, I was also throwing myself into other areas of life that would feed these unspoken needs. Cleaning, studying, having routines that I refused to break. My days were made up of chunks of time diligently allocated to specific tasks, much like my calories used to be divided by time of day. It was a big wake-up call.

I had to begin questioning why I did things. Why did I have to make my bed every morning? Why did I clean my baseboards, vacuum, wipe down all the counter tops, balance my budget, and organize my kitchen so religiously? I practiced letting things go. These things weren’t bad things, per se, but they weren’t healthy for me either, not the way I was doing them. Compulsions teach us things about ourselves, if we’re willing to look at them. Before we call them bad or good, we can simply express curiosity about them and learn from them. So, yes, I have a more cluttered life, certainly not the orderly way of my former life. And maybe that causes me some anxiety as I seek to exercise control over things. But when those compulsions hit me, I treat them like I do my disordered eating thoughts. I approach them with love and curiosity. I ask questions and I let things go that can be let go. What do I get in return? A lot of freedom.

You probably know by now that I am passionate about freedom, health and peace of mind. It is my mission to guide others on this path as well. I will continue to passionately protect the freedom I have earned in my life, over my thoughts and my “addictions”. I am not a machine and I will not act like one. I am a human being, and sometimes being is just sitting, or writing, or talking with a friend, or playing with my kids. It’s not doing something, somewhere all the time.

Shining light into the secret places is scary, because it illuminates all that you’ve worked so hard to keep private. You can do it alone or you can do it with a trusted friend, mentor or counselor. But I do encourage you to look honestly into yourself and give yourself permission to let go. You’d be surprised how much fun freedom can be.

Mary O’Malley writes, “Remember, we are not compulsive because we are losers at the beck and call of urges that are out to get us. We are compulsive because there is something we need to see, to embrace, to heal in order to become conscious human beings.” This is from her book, The Gift of Our Compulsions: A Revolutionary Approach to Self-Acceptance and Healing, which I highly recommend! See below (affiliate link) for book and Kindle versions:

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This Week’s Meal Plan

For your weekly inspiration:

Monday: Spicy baked cod
             Quinoa
             Green Beans

Tuesday: Pot Roast
              Mashed Potatoes
              Salad

Wednesday: Chicken Broccoli Feta Pasta (based loosely on this recipe)

Thursday: Fried rice

As always, a plan is just a plan. My husband found Mahi-Mahi on sale when he was grocery shopping, so that will replace the cod, but I’m not sure how I’ll prepare it. The pot roast is a new recipe because I just got my very first dutch oven! I’m excited to try it. If it’s good, you’ll hear about it!

For more inspiration, follow me on Pinterest. This link will take you to my Favorite Recipes board!

Meal Plan Inspiration

Mommy’s big (little) helper

Cheesy Chicken Broccoli Rice Casserole (Gluten-Free)

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Brrrrr, it’s time for comfort food in our house! How about yours? Sometimes I get a craving for something but don’t have a recipe in my repertoire. So, I go searching until I find a recipe that I can tweak to make it my own and sometimes it works; sometimes it doesn’t, but this isn’t one of those times!

I was craving a casserole of sorts with broccoli, chicken, rice, and cheese. I guess I was thinking of a “chicken divan” but I didn’t want that specifically. Of course, I googled “broccoli chicken cheese rice casserole” and began to browse the results. I landed on this recipe and if you follow along, you’ll see where I’ve tweaked it and how I alter recipes to make sure they’re gluten-free, incorporate only goat’s cheese (since we don’t eat cow’s cheese), and have easy substitutions like yogurt instead of sour cream. I also look for ways to add more vegetables and nutrition.

Cheesy Chicken Broccoli and Rice Casserole (Gluten-free)

Ingredients

1 onion, chopped
2 cloves garlic, chopped
2 cups brown rice
4 cups broth (I used our mineral broth, stored in the freezer)
4 cups broccoli florets
coconut oil
3 chicken breast tenders (boneless, skinless) chopped
salt
pepper
garlic powder
all seasons salt (from Simply Organic)
5 teaspoons gluten-free all purpose flour (I use Better Batter)
2 cups of milk (I used So Delicious Coconut Milk Beverage)
1/3 cup whole, plain organic yogurt (I used Stonyfield)
6.7 oz shredded goat’s cheddar cheese

Directions

Depending on your broth situation, you may have to thaw your broth like I did. I placed a jar of frozen broth in a pot on very low. It takes a while but ensures the jar doesn’t crack from temperature changes.

Chop onions and garlic. Add to a pot and sauté in coconut oil until wilted. I don’t really specify amounts of oil here. It depends on your pan and your preference. Besides, don’t all recipes say 2 Tbsp?
Add 4 cups of broth and 2 cups of rice and bring to a boil. Once boiling, reduce to medium-low and simmer for 25-30 minutes.
While cooking the rice, add more coconut oil to another pan and begin cooking the chopped chicken. Sprinkle with salt, pepper and garlic powder.
During the rice-cooking time, chop and wash broccoli, shred the cheese and measure out the yogurt.
When the chicken is cooked through, remove it to a plate and add half a cup of milk to the pan with flour. Whisk thoroughly and add the remaining milk. This will cook for approximately 7 minutes, while stirring constantly, until thickened. As it thickens, add salt, pepper, garlic powder and all seasons salt. Also add half the shredded cheese and the yogurt to the milk and mix together.
When the rice is almost done, add the broccoli to the pot (and cover) to steam.
Finally, the rice should be cooked, the broccoli should be steamed, the milk should be thickened and the rest of your ingredients ready to go. It’s time to put it all together.
Spoon the rice and broccoli into a 9×13 pan. Add the chicken and fold it in, distributing evenly.

Pour the milk-cheese-yogurt sauce over top and mix it in.

Sprinkle the remaining shredded cheese on top and broil in a preheated oven for 5-10 minutes. Keep an eye on it; it can burn!
We loved this. It was even better the next day. I thought I might have enough leftover to freeze or share with other families, but it was gone. That’s always a good sign!

This Week’s Meal Plan

In case you need some inspiration, I thought I’d share my meal plan for the week with you!


Monday: Easy Baked Tilapia
               Quinoa
               Steamed Broccoli

Tuesday: Cashew Chicken (crockpot)
              Roasted Potatoes
              Roasted Brussel Sprouts

Wednesday: Ground Beef Tacos
                   Sides: shredded lettuce, yogurt, shredded (goat) cheese,           
                   avocado and tomatoes


Thursday: Gluten-free Mac n Goat Cheese

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my sous-chef

You Don’t Have to Work Out!

I don’t work out.

There, I said it.

I may write and talk a lot about food, body image and freedom, but I don’t mention exercise much. It’s pretty controversial, actually. With all my nutrition classes and health training, I am very aware of the health impact that an exercise routine makes and yet I can state it simply: I don’t work out.

Am I recommending that you don’t work out? That depends. Does the thought of not working out fill you with fear, anxiety or guilt? Then, maybe. Does it fill you with excitement and freedom? Then, maybe. Maybe working out isn’t for you either.

Let me explain. During the worst years of my disordered eating, exercise was not an option. It wasn’t for fun. It was for the image, the look I was going for (because the emaciated skin and bones look is super hot, right?). I wanted to look like the girls on the cover of Shape magazine, which I subscribed to and devoured every month. I don’t think there was a single day that I didn’t work out in some way. From exercise videos to hours on the treadmill, long walks, running and weight lifting; I did it all. It consumed me as much, if not more than my rigid eating or lack of eating rituals.

As I gradually began the journey of recovery, exercise was the last to go. I learned to eat more freely and to accept and feed my cravings, but I could not ditch the 5-mile runs, bike rides, weight lifting sessions and yoga. You may be thinking, “Why should you? Those things are all so healthy.” Yes and no. They can be healthy but often, they’re not. When exercise is used as punishment (I ate this so I have to work it off), or to reach some physical goal (I will work out every day until I lose 15 pounds), it has power over you. You can take that power back!

Baby steps though… I traded my treadmill for an elliptical because I wanted to be gentle to my body. My rigidity continued, despite my intentions and finally I sold the elliptical and “forced” myself to take a slow, leisurely walk one afternoon a week. My intention on these walks was to quiet my mind and connect with the nature around me instead of drowning out my feelings with loud, upbeat music and pushing my body harder. I learned a lot on those walks. Gradually, I gave up running and pretty much anything that felt like I was forcing myself to do it. If I didn’t have a desire to do something, I told myself, “No.” It was a gentle “no”, much like a parent to a child, protecting myself from, well, myself. Honestly, I was scared that I would gain weight, lose muscle mass and turn into a big blob, but I didn’t. Our bodies are so incredible. Because I had already become an intuitive eater, I didn’t actually have to worry about what my body would do. We all have a natural set point for our weight that our bodies will arrive at easily, when we allow ourselves the room for some fluctuation. I found mine and I’m happy with it. I’m also happy that working out doesn’t control my life, my schedule or my relationship with my body.

The phrase “working out” is so mechanical, so laced with work. Shudder. That’s not fun! What do I suggest? The Health At Every Size model has a concept called Joyful Movement. It’s truly beautiful and I will try to describe it to you as best I can. Think of playing as a child, running around the neighborhood or in your backyard, playing tag, chase, climbing jungle gyms and kicking a soccer ball around. That was joyful. Swimming in a pool or the ocean during the summer months or being on a sports team you enjoyed. Joyful. Something happened to change that. Puberty? Media? Ideas of what you should be doing and how you should look? Maybe it was all of the above. Whatever it is, we lose that desire to move in a natural, joyful way and then we turn to “work outs” to fix ourselves. Dancing. Swimming. Walking. Running. Lifting weights. All of these are movements that can be joyful, or rigidly structured in such a way that the joy is stripped from them. If you are like I was and you need to step away from “working out” to discover what joyful movement looks like for you, give yourself permission to just stop. Adding activity into your life in a more organic way may help you find movement that you can enjoy. Things like parking farther away, taking the stairs, walking over to a co-worker instead of calling, strolling the neighborhood with your children and playing fetch with your dog are all activities that can easily be added into your life to increase movement while decreasing religious, structured, controlling regimens. It’s about turning off the timer (the one that says 30 minutes a day, 3-5 times a week) and giving yourself a break. You’re not a machine after all, despite what the fitness magazines would have you believe.

I still have my weights. They just don’t tell me what to do or when. I grab them once or twice a week and strengthen my muscles because I like the feeling I get when I lift them and I like knowing that I’m strong. I still have my running shoes, but now they push a stroller with my two beautiful girls when the weather is nice and my friends are alongside me for a good, long walk filled with deep conversations and laughter. I got a Wii last year for the winter months and I love doing programs on it like Wii Fit Plus or dance games. I had to stop that for a while too, though, because I felt my old triggers returning and the need to do it for a certain amount of time every single day. When I go back to it, it will be because I want to have fun. I guard the freedom I have with a passion. I ache for others to have that freedom too. I believe it is my mission and my purpose. Contact me if you want to schedule a session or just check-in. I love hearing from you!


Me, after the 5k Color Run – I didn’t run, but I did have a fun walk with my friends!